Its a cold day here in Edmonton. Here I sit in my tearoom feeling someone foolish. I have been planning on meeting with a friend for several weeks now and something ALWAYS seems to come up that we just haven't been able to get together. Today I was particularly eager to meet with her as my kit for Heritage Makers and I wanted to share it with her.
So, why am I not there? After all the planning and arranging, healing of sick children and getting a new van, why am I not enjoying a latte with my friend? I don't have her address. We have been communicating through Facebook and she did at one point share her address with me, but I can't find the address or her phone number. (sigh) So I've sent her several messages on Facebook today but I believe in the past couple of days she has been MIA because her iphone and laptop were baptized.
So here I sit, feeling very helpless. I don't like this feeling. I am a nurse. I enjoy doing things for people which help bring resolve to pain and illness. There is no pill I can take to make this better. There is no therapy to get me out of this spot. So here I sit, "In the Garden"...praying my friend does not feel like I am avoiding her and dropping her.
This week, while things are freezing up here "In the Garden", the Master Gardener has been teaching me how to be in His Will. I am preparing my heart and character to bring home my baby from school in the Fall. After 3 years of fighting with him, I realized that it was me who needed a character readjustment.
Recently I was drawn to 1 Thessalonians 5:18, "In EVERYTHING give thanks, for this is the will of God for you in Christ Jesus". Anna Duggar, of 19 Kids and Counting, while sharing at a prison about her recent miscarriage said to the women to give thanks in the good times and the hard times and that will prevent seeds of bitterness from taking root in our hearts. As I continued to read the scripture surrounding the verse I realized there was more than giving thanks in everything that we are commanded to do. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NLT) says, "Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's Will for you who belong to Christ Jesus". The Master Gardener so desperately wants to bless me and you. His desire for us is joy, prayerfulness, and thanksgiving. Sounds so easy...
As the ground freezes around those seeds in my heart, I will learn how to grow flowers with the sweet aroma of joy, prayerfulness and thanksgiving.
As for my sweet friend...I am going to pray she understands and (sigh) we'll try again for next week.
